"I love you. You know how much I hate this" he whispered.I couldn't even look at him right then and there. My heart was truly breaking. I couldn't tell you the emotions I felt. I just felt dead. I felt dead that Simon would do this to me. Maybe in the back of my mind, I was hoping I would be the lucky one that stayed. Simon then explained to me why everything was happening. I shook my head like I understood. As I stood up and walked away.I felt his eyes on me. I turned around and gave him one last look. "Have fun in London Si" I said before walking out. I got to my car as the tears fell once more. I couldn't even drive. I just sat there, my best friend just fired me because I wasn't good enough.
Anger then took fire over my body, as I started my BWM and drove off. I entered my hotel, as I took the elevator to my room. I pulled myself together and whipped away the smeared makeup away from my eyes. I didn't what no one feeling sorry for me. I only had myself to blame. I was in love with my boss, and that is mostly why I don't have a job right now. I unlock the room and lay on my bed, I buried my head into the pillow as I let my emotions run wild. I couldn't hold it anymore. At that moment I didn't have anyone to turn to,I usually call Simon when I'm upset. Yet now he is the reason why I'm crying, I just lost my best friend. Now I felt all alone.
I guess I feel asleep because everything after that was a blur. I woke up and saw that I had five missed calls all from Simon. I went through them all and erased them, before the new voice mail icon appeared on my blackberry, I automatically called it. I put my password in and then Simon's voice appeared on the other end. "Paula, I was wrong. Please come back over. I wanna fix things. I can't fire you. I love you to much. I guess your mad, because you didn't answer my calls. But after all the hate mail on twitter, and after hating myself when I watched you walk away. I knew I couldn't do it. Your my best friend, my soul mate.." Simon's voice broke. I automatically knew he was crying, it broke my heart to hear him crying. As much as I wanted to call him back and say "I'm coming over" I wanted to finish hearing his voice mail. "I love you too much to lose you again, so when you get this. If you want come over, if not I understand. I'm a jerk, and I don't deserve you" Simon said. With that the voice mail ended.
I didn't even call Simon back, I just drove straight over to his house. I used the key he gave me when we were dating to get in. The house was quiet, I knew he was probably still regretting everything and wishing I would answer. I walked into his office, Simon has his heard on the desk. I knocked on the door, expecting him to move, but he just stood there. "Mary, I told you I don't want anything to eat" Simon said. I walked into the room some more before I replied. "Well I'm not Mary, and I don't have food for you" I said smiling. Simon jumped up from where he was as he looked at me. He looked at me, as if I was a ghost. I couldn't help but smile as I looked at him.
"Pawla, your here. I didn't think you were coming." He said. Simon was lost for words, and he was also one not to admit that he is wrong. So him deciding he wanted me back, was truly a shock. "I feel asleep, but I got your voice mail. After that I had to come back.. I love you too much to walk away Simon. I love my job too much as well. And you know that" I said as the tears came into my eyes. Simon got up from the chair and walked over to where I was standing. He opened his arms out for me, and I buried my face into his chest as I cried. "I'm sorry, I love you too Paula" He said as he kissed my hairline. I looked up at him and smiled. "So I'm staying?" I asked. After current events I really wasn't sure what was going on. Simon looked at me before laughing, as he answered. "Yes, my love. You are staying, and you are staying with me this evening." he said. I looked at Simon, I knew what he wanted.
I closed my eyes before opening them. It was all like a nightmare my life feel apart ten mins ago. Now everything was perfect once again. I looked into Simon's chocolate brown eyes and I was home. I wrapped my arsm around his neck, before I kissed him. The kiss was feeled with so much passion,love regret, and hate. It was something that you would only see in movies. Yet my life wasn't a movie. It was real. The next thing I know Simon and I are in bed, his lips still on mine.
I been with Simon many times, I been in his home in London. More times than I can count. I dated the man at least ten times, but never, and I mean never, have I been more happier than to be in his arms, and be with him right now. I watched Simon sleep for a bit, as I thought to myself. How lucky I truly was. Everything I ever wanted was in this man. He may not be perfect, but I'm not five anymore and I'm not looking for prince charming. I'm looking for someone who knows me better than I know myself, someone who isn't afraid to admit when they are wrong, and someone who will chase me when I leave. I found my price all along. He didn't his white horse, or a carriage, he didn't have the knight in shinning armor look going for him, but in my eyes he was perfect. Love is blind in the eyes of the beholder, and my eyes everything was in black and white. My life, my love, my job, and Simon were all tied in one, and if one went missing... Well I guess you already know that..