How To Save A Life

Step one, you say, ?We need to talk?

He walks, you say, ?Sit down, it’s just a talk?

He smiles politely back at you

You stare politely right on through

“Paula, I honestly don’t understand why this is such a big deal?” I ask following her out in the parking lot. I could feel the anger rising off of her, as she darted her caramel brown eyes, glared into my chocolate brown ones. “Because, Alex, deserves better. We gotta go” Paula said, putting Alexander in his car seat before getting into the driver’s seat of her BWM. “Paula, will I see you at home?” I ask.

Some sort of window to your right

As he goes left and you stay right

Between the lines of fear and blame

You begin to wonder why you came

She looked at me before starting her car. I know that wasn’t a good sign. I watched her drive away Part of me wishing, I didn’t make her that mad, and part of me, wanting to drive after her, but that would only make it worse.. I let her go, as I went back inside to my office, to file work..

One Hour Later

My anger now subsided, as I thought, I should probably check on Paula and Alex, before I had time to pick up my phone. It began ringing with an unknown number. “Simon Cowell” I said answering my phone. “Mr. Cowell, I have some shocking news” a man’s voice said. Fear began to take over me, as I tried to not fear for the worse. “Yes?” I asked. The man paused before saying what he needed to say. “Sir, your wife has been in a horrible car accident. And she’s in the hospital” The man said. My heart began to pound. I felt like a part of me just died. Paula was in the hospital, and it was my fault. My world just turned upside down, at the moment, I didn’t know if I wanted to cry, or scream in anger. “How’s my son?” I ask in a low voice. Trying to contain my composure

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Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend

Somewhere along in the bitterness

And I would have stayed up with you all night

Had I known how to save a life

“Your son is fine Mr. Cowell, the driver hit your wife’s side of the car. He’s staying with your mother- in law at the moment” the man said. I felt the tears began to form in my eyes. “Thank you, I will be right there” I said. I put my phone down as the tears began to stream down my face. Simon Cowell didn’t cry, but he did for his family. Paula might been gone, and it was all my fault. I quickly grabbed my phone and rushed out of the office. I started my car as fast as I could, and drove to the hospital.

Let him know that you know best

?Cause after all, you do know best

Try to slip past his defense

Without granting innocence

I couldn’t help watching the flashbacks pass my mind. Of why this happened.

“Simon, I don’t want to move, To London, I think it will be better for Alex, if we stay here.” Paula said. I couldn’t believe she was denying this. I wanted to move out of California, so our son could leave a normal life, that he wouldn’t be over well med with the cameras, and the life of a celebrity child. I wanted a normal life for him, and she didn’t want that. ”Paula, I don’t want everyone to know who our child is. I want him to have a normal life, like you did growing up.” I said. My life was far from normal growing up. “What was so bad about your life Simon? I think he can handle that, Besides my family is here.” She said.

Lay down a list of what is wrong

The things you’ve told him all along

And pray to God he hears you

And pray to God he hears you

The rest of that fight, just was beyond stupid. If everything went well. We would stay in L.A. and raise our son. I rushed into the hospital, as I went back into the E.R. Lorraine was already there with Alexander in her arms. She looked up at me and smiled a weak smile. I could tell she had been crying, her eyes looked weak. ”How is she?” I asked in a low voice. Lorraine got up and handed Alex over to me before looking me in the eyes and giving me a straight forward answer. “She’s not to good Simon” She said. I felt the tears burning in my eyes, as I kissed my son’s head. I automatically wished I was as innocent as Alex at the moment. Our poor son, had no idea what was going on. I wish I was that ignorant at the moment. I wish everything just seemed to be alright, but it wasn’t Paula, could die, and it was my fault! I ruffled my son’s jet black hair, before handing him over to his grandmother!

And where did I go wrong? I lost a friend

Somewhere along in the bitterness

And I would have stayed up with you all night

Had I known how to save a life

I walked into Paula’s room. She looked as if she was asleep. Her eyes were closed, and stained blood was all over her beautiful face. The rest of her body looked pretty much okay. I walked over and sat down beside her as I grabbed her tiny hand and brushed my lips against it. “I’m s-o-r-r-y” I chocked out before I began to cry once again. I felt like my world was crashing around me, and there was no one to hear me scream, “I’m dying!”

As he begins to raise his voice

You lower yours and grant him one last choice

Drive until you lose the road

Or break with the ones you’ve followed

“I love you Paula, and We will won’t move, just please come back to me. We all need you, I can’t live. w-i-t-h-o-u-t- you” I said. I just couldn’t deal with it. As much as I wanted to be here. My heart couldn’t take it. I kissed Paula, lightly on the lips before walking out the door. I sat down beside Lorraine, as I put my head in my hands, as the tears began to come once more. ”She loves you Simon” Lorraine said smiling at me. I whipped my tears away as I smiled. “I know, I love her too” I smiled up at her, trying not to cry.

He will do one of two things

He will admit to everything

Or he’ll say he’s just not the same

And you’ll begin to wonder why you came

“I know you do” She smiled. I would love to tell my mother in law why I can’t be in there, but I would feel like she wouldn’t understand. I don’t think anyone but Paula, would ever understand our relationship. It was just something explainable yet, that’s what love is. ”Thank God Alex was okay” I thought to myself, I couldn’t lose anymore..

Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend

Somewhere along in the bitterness

And I would have stayed up with you all night

Had I known how to save a life

“How long has she been out?” I asked looking at Lorraine. ”She hasn’t been up, since she’s been here” Lorraine said. I once again forced myself to look away from my mother in law. My heart couldn’t possible take it. I couldn’t look in her eyes, Paula’s eyes, and be okay with myself. “Mr. Cowell” a doctor said. I automatically looked up as the man said my name. “Yes?” I asked. “your wife wants to see you” he said. I automatically jumped up as I almost ran into Paula’s room. Her caramel brown eyes were still close, but now a smile was on her face. ”Simon, I’m sorry” She said in a low voice.

Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend

Somewhere along in the bitterness

And I would have stayed up with you all night

Had I known how to save a life

“No, I’m sorry, I shouldn’t let you go. I love you Paula” I said as I kissed her lightly on the lips. She smiled at me before laying her head on my sholder.

“The last thing I remember, is Alex crying, and all I could think about, was I wanna see Simon, one last time, just to tell him I’m sorry” She said as the tears began to form in her eyes. I pressed my lips against hers as I kissed her passionately . She was alive, and my world was right once again, and all was forgiven.

How to save a life

How to save a life